Minha vida se resume em antes do Evanescence e depois do Evanescence!!!

A quase 3 anos atrás uma bela voz me fez conhecer uma banda fantástica e incrível chamada Evanescence. Livre de rótulos, suas músicas trazem sensações únicas. Para serem ouvidas a qualquer hora, mas principalmente naquelas em que nos encontramos muito pensativos, tentando entender e conhecer a nós mesmos.

Num belo dia de folga do meu antigo serviço (Cinemark), estava eu tranquilamente trocando de canal na TV, quando passei pela MTV (que já não andava lá essas coisas...) e vi um clipe bonito, um som legal, com uma "menina" andando do lado de fora do prédio... Parei pra prestar atenção e resolvi assistir até o fim... Resultado, adorei a música e anotei o nome da mesma e da banda. No mesmo dia, à noite, fui pra internet pra baixar esse clipe e ver o que mais eu encontrava dessa banda até então desconhecida. Achei o clipe e mais algumas músicas (a maioria do encantador álbum Origin). Procurei também sites, naquele dia encontrei apenas 4! Entre eles um blog bem legal de uma garota que até hoje ama a banda e participa da atualização do site brasileiro deles. E outro com uma informação muito importante era o Americanas.com, na seção de CDs havia o da trilha sonora do filme "O Demolidor" indicando as músicas "Bring Me To Life" e "My Immortal" como faixas da trilha. O que me fez pensar, "por isso gostei da música, já a conhecia de algum lugar". Ao final do download, assisti ao clipe novamente e me apaixonei de vez!!! E em seguida ouvi as outras músicas que também já haviam terminado de baixar. Meus principais vícios de início eram:

Imaginary

i linger in the doorway
of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name
let me stay
where the wind will whisper to me
where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story
in my field of paper flowers
and candy clouds of lullaby
i lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me
don't say i'm out of touch
with this rampant chaos - your reality
i know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
the nightmare i built my own world to escape
in my field of paper flowers
and candy clouds of lullaby
i lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me
swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
oh how i long for the deep sleep dreaming
the goddess of imaginary light

Fields Of Innocence

I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now
Where has my heart gone?
An uneven trade for the real world
I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all
I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now
Where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
I want to go back to
Believing in everything
[Latin hymn:]
Iesu, Rex admirabiis
et triumphator nobilis,
dulcdu ineffabilis,
totus desiderabilis.
[man:]
As the years pass by
Before my face,
As war rage before me,
I forced it out
In darkness of the storm
lies an evil,
but it's me
where has my heart gone?
an uneven trade for the real world
oh, I, I want to go back to
believing in everything
oh, whee, where has my heart gone?
trapped in the eyes of a stranger
oh I, I want to go back to
believing in everything.
I still remember...

Anywhere

Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven't you longed to be free
I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
Take my hand
[CHORUS:]
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name
I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one knows who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where no one needs a reason
Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you
Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you now

Whisper

Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me into madness
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away
Don't turn away
[Don't give in to the pain]
Don't try to hide
[Though they're screaming your name]
Don't close your eyes
[God knows what lies behind them]
Don't turn out the light
[Never sleep never die]
I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know that there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be blinded by tears
I can stop the pain if I will it all away
Don't turn away
[Don't give in to the pain]
Don't try to hide
[Though they're screaming your name]
Don't close your eyes
[God knows what lies behind them]
Don't turn out the light
[Never sleep never die]
Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for I rise to meet the end
Don't turn away
[Don't give in to the pain]
Don't try to hide
[Though they're screaming your name]
Don't close your eyes
[God knows what lies behind them]
Don't turn out the light
Never sleep never die

Haunted

Long lost words whisper slowly to me
Still can't find what keeps me here
When all this time I've been so hollow inside
I know you're still there
Watching me wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Fearing you loving you
I won't let you pull me down
Hunting you i can smell you - alive
Your heart pounding in my head
Watching me wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Saving me raping me
Watching me
I wont let you pull me down
Watching me wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Saving me raping me
Watching me
I wont let you pull me down

Tourniquet

I tried to kill the pain
but only brought more(So much more)
I lay dying
and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am I too lost to be saved
am I too lost?
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
I'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am I too lost to be saved
am I too lost?
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will I be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide

Taking Over Me

you don't remember me but I remember you
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
but who can decide what they dream?
and dream I do...
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me
have you forgotten all I know
and all we had?
you saw me mourning my love for you
and touched my hand
I knew you loved me then
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me
I look in the mirror and see your face
if i look deep enough
so many things inside that are just like you are
taking over

Lies

Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear
Sealed with lies through so many tears
Lost from within, pursuing the end
I fight for the chance to be lied to again
You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never conceived in love
You will not rise above
[CHORUS:]
They'll never see
I'll never be
I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
But through my tears breaks a blinding light
Birthing a dawn to this endless night
Arms outstretched, awaiting me
An open embrace upon a bleeding tree
Rest in me and I'll comfort you
I have lived and I died for you
Abide in me and I vow to you
I will never forsake you
They'll never see
I'll never be
I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
They'll never see
I'll never be
I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me

... E com esse vício todo continuei em busca de mais músicas. A essa altura do campeonato já havia mais gente gostando da banda e com isso era mais fácil baixar mp3! Meus vícios seguintes foram...

Even In Death

Give me a reason to believe that you're gone
I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong
Moonlight on the soft brown earth
It leads me to where you lay
They took you away from me but now I'm taking you
home
[CHORUS:]
I will stay forever here with you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on
Some say I'm crazy for my love, Oh my love
But no bonds can hold me from your side, Oh my love
They don't know you can't leave me
They don't hear you singing to me
[Chorus]
And I can't love you, anymore than I do
My darling, our love is forever

Exodus

My black backpack's stuffed with broken dreams
Twenty bucks should get me through the week
Never said a word of discontentment
Thought it a thousand times but now
I'm leaving home
Here in the shadows
I'm safe, I'm free
I've nowhere else to go
but I cannot stay where I don't belong
Two months passed by and it's getting cold
I know I'm not lost I'm just alone
But I won't cry, I won't give up, I can't go back now
Waking up is knowing who you really are
Here in the shadows
I'm safe, I'm free
I've nowhere else to go
but I cannot stay where I don't belong
In the shadows
I'm safe, I'm free
I've nowhere else to go
but I cannot stay here
Oh, show me the shadow where true meaning lies
So much more dismay in empty eyes.

Give Unto Me

I've been watching you from a distance
But distance sees through your disguise
All I want from you is your hurting
I want to heal you
I want to save you from the dark
Give unto me your troubles
I'll endure your suffering
Place onto me your burden
I'll drink your deadly poison
Why should I care if they hurt you
Somehow it matters more to me
Than if I were hurting myself
Save you, I'll save you
Fear not the flame of my love's candle
Give unto me all that frightens you
I'll have you're nightmares for you
If you sleep soundly
Fear not the flame of my love's candle
Let it be the sun in your world of darkness

Listen To The Rain

Listen To The Rain
Listen listen
Listen listen
Listen listen
Listen listen
Listen [listen] listen [listen]
Listen [listen] listen [listen]
Listen [listen] listen [listen]
Listen listen
Listen to each drop of rain [listen listen]
Aaah
Whispering secrets in rain [listen listen]
Aaah
Magically searching for someone to hear
That story be more than it hides
Each droplet long {gone[?]}
Can't we stay for a while?
It's just to hard to say goodbye
Listen to the rain
Aa...ah
Listen listen listen listen listen listen to the rain
Weeping
Oo...ooh oooh ooh oo...ooh
Oo...ooh oooh oh oh
Listen [listen] listen [listen]
Listen [listen] listen
I stand alone in the storm [listen listen]
Suddenly sweet I say no
[Listen listen]
Couldn't they stay for you haven't much time
Open your eyes to the love around you
You can feel you're alone
But I'm here still with you
You can do what you dream
Just remember to listen to the rain
oo...ooh oh oh oh oh
ooh ooh oh oh oooh
Listen

Eternal (instrumental

October

I can't run anymore,
I fall before you,
Here I am,
I have nothing left,
Though I've tried to forget,
You're all that I am,
Take me home,
I'm through fighting it,
Broken,
Lifeless,
I give up,
You're my only strength,
Without you,
I can't go on,
Anymore,
Ever again.
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.
I can't run anymore,
I give myself to you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry,
In all my bitterness,
I ignored,
All that's real and true,
All I need is you,
When night falls on me,
I'll not close my eyes,
I'm too alive,
And you're too strong,
I can't lie anymore,
I fall down before you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry.
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.
Constantly ignoring,
The pain consuming me,
But this time it's cut too deep,
I'll never stray again.
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love,
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.

So Close

I've spent so much time throwing rocks at your window
That I never even knocked on the front door
I walk by statues never even made one chip
but if i could leave a mark on the monument of the
heart
I just might lay myself down for a little more than I
had the last day
Wait a time to spare these lies we tell ourselves
These days have come and gone
But this time is sweeter than honey

Understanding

You hold the answer deep within your own mind.
Consciously you've forgotten it.
That's the way the human mind works.
Whenever something is too unpleasant, too shameful for
us to entertain we reject it, we erase it from our
memory, but the imprint is always there.
We wash it all away, we wish it all away, we hope it
all away, can't cry it all away.
The pain that grips you
The fear that binds you
Releases life in me
In our mutual shame we hide our eyes
To blind them from the truth that finds a way for who
we are
Please don't be afraid
When the darkness fades away
The dawn will break the silence screaming at our
hearts
My love for you still grows
This I do for you
Before I try to fight the truth my final time
We're supposed to try to be real. We feel alone when
we're not together, and that is real.
Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away
Lying beside you
Listening to you breathe
The light that flows inside of you burns inside of me
Hold and speak to me
Of love without a sound
Tell me you will live through this and I will die for
you
Cast me not away
Say you'll be with me
For I know I cannot bear it all alone
You're not alone, honey, Never. Never.
Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
It just won't fade away, no...
Ohh. can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away, yeah, yeah yeah.
Can't throw it all away
Can't scratch it all away, yeah....
Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
Move it all away
Move it all away
But the imprint is always there, nothing is ever
really forgotten
Please don't hate me
Because I'm tired of it too.
Because I'm tired of it too.
Because I'm tired of it too.
Because I'm tired of it too.
Because I'm tired of it too.


...E continuava a incansável luta por mais e mais músicas! E mais vícios...

Surrender

Is this real enough for you?
You were so confused
now that you've decided to stay
We'll remain together
[REFRÃO]
You can't abandon me, you belong to me
Breathe in and take my life in you
No longer myself, only you
There's no escaping me my love
Surrender
Darling there's no sense in running
You know I will find you
Everything is perfect now, we can live forever
[REFRÃO]
Hands up slowly, give in to
Breathe in and take my life in you
No longer myself only you
There's no escaping me my love
Surrender [4X]

You must surrender to me
There's no escaping, for me
I know you´re holding to me
You must surrender to me

I Must Be Dreaming

How can I pretend that I don't see
What you hide so carelessly?
I saw her bleed
You heard me breathe
And I froze inside myself
And turned away
I must be dreaming
We all live
We all die
That does not begin to justify you
It's not what it seems
Not what you think
No I must be dreaming
It's only in my mind
Not in real life
No I must be dreaming
Help you know I've got to tell someone
Tell them what I know you've done
I fear you but spoken fears can come true
We all live
We all die
That does not begin to justify you
It's not what it seems
Not what you think
No I must be dreaming
It's only in my mind
Not in real life
No I must be dreaming
Not what it seems
Not what you think
I must be dreaming
Just in my mind
Not in real life
I must be dreaming

Before The Dawn

Meet me after dark again and I'll hold you
I am nothing more than to see you there
And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn
If only night can hold you where i can see you, my
love
Then let me never ever wake again
And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn
[Chorus]
somehow i know that we cant wake again from this
dream
it's not real, but it's ours
Maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn
Maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

Breathe No More

I've been looking in the mirror for so long,
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other
side.
All the little pieces falling, shattered.
Shards of me too sharp to put back together.
Too small to matter,
But big enough to cut me in to so many little pieces
if I try to touch her.
And I bleed. I bleed.
And I breathe. I breathe, no more
I take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits
well.
Yet how can you refuse to drink like a stubborn
child.
Lie to me convince me that I've been sick forever.
And all of this will make sense when I get better.
But I know the difference between myself and my
reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder which of us do you
love.
So I bleed. I bleed.
And I breathe.
I breathe no,
Bleed. I bleed.
And I breathe. I breathe. I breathe. I breathe, no
more.

... Nessa época do ano, após todos esses vícios (!), era meu aniversário e ganhei o álbum Fallen de presente. Eles também já estavam super famosos. Ouvi o Cd e percebi que a maioria eram as músicas que já conhecia em versões diferentes... E imaginei que, a gravadora "pegou" as músicas antigas, deu uma remixada com uns efeitos e colocou no álbum. Gostei das novas versões mas com certeza as antigas eram ainda melhores. Consegui também na internet uns vídeos de um show muito bom que fizeram na Alemanha (evento Rock Am Ring). Peguei os vídeos de Whisper, Haunted, Tourniquet e viciei em...

My Last Breath

Hold on to me love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was I love you
And I'm not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?
REFRÃO:
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollowe tree
(Come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
REPETE REFRÃO
Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams
Will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there
Say goodnight
Don't be afraid
Calling me calling me
As your fade to black

...A qual até hoje é uma das minhas grandes favoritas! Passou um tempo e lançaram o ao vivo "Anywhere But Home", álbum ótimo o qual viciei em mais duas músicas...

Thoughtless (Korn Cover)

All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your
Thoughtless scheaming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down
I wanna see you try to take a swing at me
Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground
Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take you turn lashing out me
I want you crying with you
Dirty ass in front of me
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your
Thoughtless scheaming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
And I'll pull the trigger
And you're down, down, down
Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take you turn lashing out me
I want you crying with you
Dirty ass in front of me
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your
Thoughtless scheaming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
All my friends are gone, they died.
They all screamed, and cried.
Gonna take you down.
Gonna take you down.
Gonna take you down.
Gonna take you down.
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your
Thoughtless scheaming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your
Thoughtless scheaming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

Farther Away

I took their smiles and I made them mine.
I, I sold my soul just to hide the light.
And now I see what I really am,
A thief a whore, and a liar.
I run to you,
Call out your name,
I see you there, farther away.
Im numb to you - numb and deaf and blind.
You give me all but the reason why.
I reach but I feel only air at night.
Not you, not love, just nothing.
I run to you,
Call out your name,
I see you there, farther away.
Try to forget you,
But without you I feel nothing.
Don't leave me here, by myself.
I can't breathe.
I run to you,
Call out your name,
I see you there, farther away.
I run to you,
Call out your name,
I see you there, farther away,
Farther away,
Farther away,
Farther away,
Farther away,
Farther away.

...E continuo ouvindo e gostando cada vez mais do Evanescence! Um bom tempo depois eles lançam o segundo álbum de estúdio (por uma grande gravadora), o "The Open Door". Adorei o álbum inteiro, mas claro, destaque para os vícios...

The Only One

When they all come crashing down- midflight
you know you're not the only one
when they're so alone they find a back door out of
life
you know you're not the only one
We're all grieving
lost and bleeding
All our lives
we've been waiting
for someone to call our leader
all your lies
I'm not believing
heaven shine a light down on me
So afraid to open your eyes- hypnotized
You know you're not the only one
Never understood this life
And you're right I don't deserve but you know I'm not
the only one
We're all grieving
Lost and bleeding
All our lives
We've been waiting
For someone to call our leader
All your lies
I'm not believing
Heaven shine a light down on me
Don't look down
Don't look into the eyes of the world beneath you
Don't look down, you'll fall down,
You'll become their sacrifice
Right or wrong
Can't hold onto the fear that I'm lost without you
If I can't feel, I'm not mine,
I'm not real
All our lives
We've been waiting
For someone to call our leader
All your lies
I'm not believing
Heaven shine a light down on me

Your Star

I can't see your star
I can't see your star
though I patiently waited, bedside, for the death of
today
I can't see your star
the mechanical lights of Lisbon frightened it away
and I'm alone now
me and all I stood for
we're wandering now
all in parts in pieces, swim lonely
find your own way out
I can't see your star
I can't see your star
how can the darkness feel so wrong?
and I'm alone now
me and all I stood for
we're wandering now
all in parts in pieces, swim lonely
find your own way out
So far away
its growing colder without your love
why can't you feel me calling your name?
can't break the silence
its breaking me
all my fears turn to rage
and I'm alone now me
and all I stood for
we're wandering now
all in parts and pieces, swim lonely
find your own way out

Like You

Stay low
soft, dark, and dreamless
far beneath my nightmares and loneliness
I hate me
for breathing without you
I don't want to feel anymore for you
grieving for you
I'm not grieving for you
nothing real love can't undo
and though I may have lost my way
all paths lead straight to you
I long to be like you
lie cold in the ground like you
Halo
blinding wall between us
melt away and leave us alone again
humming, haunted somewhere out there
I believe our love can see us through in death
I long to be like you
lie cold in the ground like you
there's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for
you
I'm coming for you
You're not alone
no matter what they told you you're not alone
I'll be right beside you forevermore
I long to be like you, sis
lie cold in the ground like you did
there's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for
you
and as we lay in silent bliss
I know you remember me
I long to be like you
lie cold in the ground like you
there's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for
you
I'm coming for you

Lacrymosa

Out on your own
cold and alone again
can this be what you really wanted, baby?
Blame it on me
set your guilt free
nothing can hold you back now
Now that you're gone
I feel like myself again
grieving the things I can't repair and willing...
To let you blame it on me
and set guilt free
I don't want to hold you back now love
I can't change who I am
not this time, I won't lie to keep you near me
and in this short life,
there's no time to waste on giving up
my love was't enough
And you can blame it on me
just set your guilt free, honey
I don't want to hold you back now love

All That I'm Living For

All that I'm living for
all that I'm dying for
all that I can't ignore alone at night
I can feel the night beginning
separate me from the living
understanding me
after all I've seen
piecing every thought together
find the words to make me better
if I only knew how to pull myself apart
All that I'm living for
all that I'm dying for
all that I can't ignore alone at night
all that I'm wanted for
although I wanted more
lock the last open door
my ghosts are gaining on me
I believe that dreams are sacred
take my darkest fears and play them
like a lullaby
like a reason why
like a play of my obsessions
make me understand the lesson
so I'll find myself
so I wont be lost again
All that I'm living for
all that I'm dying for
all that I can't ignore alone at night
all that I'm wanted for
although I wanted more
lock the last open door
my ghosts are gaining on me
Guess I thought I'd have to change the world
to make you see me
to be the one
I could have run forever
but how far would I have come
without mourning your love?
All that I'm living for
all that I'm dying for
all that I can't ignore alone at night
all that I'm wanted for
although I wanted more
lock the last open door
my ghosts are gaining on me
should it hurt to love you?
should I feel like I do?
should I lock the last open door
my ghosts are gaining on me

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Com certeza essa banda mudou minha vida!!! Obrigada Amy Lee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!